California.

When we have nothing left to give/there will be no reason for us to live/But when we have nothing left to lose/you will have nothing left to use….
-Fugazi.

Now I know why you’ve been drinking…
-Soundgarden.

Once in a while youd be better off listening to fools for a change..
-COC.

Yey…here’s to me being a total fucking twat and leaning on the wrong button the other night after hunting and pecking my way through 3 jam packed hours of whitetrash…yup…I lost the fucking lot…Its now Wednesday morning and I have composed myself enough to try again after watching crapulent TV and eating Chocolate lucky charms out of the box.
I got 2 tired punx passed out on my bed which means I am gonna have to get over the minefeild of dog shit and land in the master bedroom sooner or later….

Had Evil J calling me tonite from backstage at the Mudvayne show asking when my sister returns.Then he handed the phone over to Scotty who always puts a smile on my dile.I nag him incessently to hook us up with SJR cause its my lifelong dream to get to open for Philip Anselmo….you know what? Stranger things have happened….
Like today…
On the floor on my sisters crapola phone trying to do and interview on a web station that Harley from the desert had hooked me up with.You know how some cunt once said that there are no stupid questions just stupid answers? Well he can go get fucked cause LORD do I get asked some dumb assed shit…I came out swinging so I dunno…Harley tells me that he is up on the forum now and will post a link so ya’all can hear me make a dick of myself again…

Shameless is good…
Shameless with your bass player is even better,,, Shameless if you world it right on the sunset strip with a pocket full of CDs and a big mouth gets you meeting Ron Smallwood who happens to manage Iron fucking MAIDEN!!!!
We were loitering with grave intent out the front of the Key Club where there was a biG hoity ho-ha music thing and we scared a whole lot of people wearing laminates into taking our cds…You throw enough shit at a wall somthing is gonna stick sooner or later…

Gooch tells me that I am crazy and that is nothing that I didnt know.He and Val are going back out on the road with Ozzfest and here I sit hoping next year that we are with them…

Saw Miss Monica from Fasterlouder on the strip as well…we played her the new shit in her car and left her smiling at the Rainbow which we were to fuckin broke to get into as always so we walked home and another cunt of a cabdriver tried to rip me off untill I unleashed a torrent of very unsavory language at him…They run their metres at triple speed if they think that they can get away with it….

I started trying to get all my shit into one place tonite to lock and load and it gave me a mighty fucking headache lemme tell ya….

I dunno how I ended up with soooo much crap again and the thought of getting it all through customs makes me fucking shudder.Ross said somthing about a 30 hour stopover in NYC but I tuned him out and imagined getting eaten out by Jenna Jamers…ahem! Sorry…where were we???

Bordem sets in and now some of my dreads are green….

The perfect one gets back from old blighty tommrow…I cant belive that I have got to jet so soon….

But let it be known that we will be back on the road in August in Australia…there ! I have said it so stop asking Me!We are hammering out a tour and a new DVD as I write this so tell us where ya want us to play and we will see what we can do…..

Gonna be fuckin weird to get back thats for sure…I am gonna go AWOL at last! No computers,no band no fuckin worries!

I will be in touch when I can but mid May onwards y’all gonna have to cut me some slack….The point has been sharp and I have to regroup to take it up a notch again…

I will write again before I leave LA but after that I dunno….I will be handing the Myspace over to Princess Jacobi if she can do it….Unfortunatly I have some shitty hospital time ahead of me…boo…I want Ross to flim the carnage but when ever I mention it he goes somewhat green….

Naff naff naff…I love that hacks get the things I want cause I know that when I snatch it out of their hands its gonna mean SO MUCH MORE!

The WT that I lost had a shitload of stuff out of the hallowed [OH! my SIDES!” ] diary that I cart around the world like the zit sprinkled teen that I am destnied to be for all fucking eterity…just spoke of landscpae and longing which is a good 80% of my life at the best of times…

All its comming down to right now is the fact that I have finally gone full blown Veggo [I can see Blackie smiling right now!] Going to more meetings to keep my head clear and the Johnny Cash belt buckle that I want…ohhhh yeah…..

I have really enjoyed talking to y’all on myspace and thru email but remember if you need to get a hold of me for real at the moment I cant get to the hotmail and its making me nuts so hit me up through the the site and all will be sweet.

Need more Slayer patches!My Illicit Hoodie is customized crusty punk style within an inch of its life!Its the leather I never had! Ha!

Kinda sweet really.I am finally the kid that I wanted to be when I was a kid…Still as uncool as ever but it fits me like a glove.I still want to see my 1st boyfriend again who started me onto so much cool stuff…I was raised right [thanx to Saint Tina..] and I want to thank him cause there are a few pople in your life who tip the axis and I cant imagine where I would be now with out them …dead or lost…I know who I owe and I want to see them all again…..

Take 3 and Sin the couple that I have been living with…I have had no cash and was a sorry fat lump when I got here but they are good people who saw somthing good in my broke ass and extended that goodess to me just like I did at the Ranch a zillion times…its the first time that such ongoing peachy Karma has been applied to me so I am pretty stoked.I washed up and did laundry and they were hip above and beyond the cause….

I shoulda hit this up hours ago cause my eyes are rolling like a cornered horse right now..The calcified shitty vein in my left arm is all jumpy and pissing me off which means its gonna rain or I am gonna get in a fight…[ He told me that he was gonna lick the scars off my shoulders and I could just picture those wolf eyes….]

I am gonna go fall over.

Stay strong.
SF4L
Michele