All I ever wanted

All I ever needed
Is here in my arms.
-Depeshe Mode.

Competitions are for horses, not artists.
-Bela bartok.1962

It is easy to be brave from a distance.
-Aseop.6th C BC.

Hey pig, yeah you.
-NIN.

If your out to beat a dog your sure to find a stick.
-Yiddish proverb.

I am a dog
I am THE dog.
I may or may not be the dog that Iggy sings about.
No matter
I am untrained and unwanted.
The gift that didn’t stay cute.
I am behind the bars at the pound, you overlook me and I am heading for puppy Auschwitz….
Unless that is, unless…
I am roaming
I see where your bodies are buried and I watch you as addictively as crack sprinkled porn
I know all your ugly little secrets
I am getting to know you better than you know yourself and with your ego intact and your head high you discredit me because I don’t fit your visual standard.
And that is exactly what I want.
I am the mutt of all ages and I have nothing to lose.
You don’t even see me.

But you will, you will…
mmmm…..

This is about cowards and stick wielders.
This commences upon the ashes of those who don’t have the courage to face me.
Make sure you have a strong grip on that stick honey, watch that I am not rabid; I will snatch it from you the first chance I choose to take. I wont beat you back, that’s what you want. I will snap it in front of you and walk away.

I love that it grates on you.
I love that I grate on you.
It’s the gift that keeps on giving.
It’s like Xmas every day.
Its like a lottery and I won a lifetime’s supply of knob jockeys to mess with to my hearts content.

Happy birthday to me,me,me…..

Kinda hacked off that you haven’t armed your feeble selves with a bigger and better stick to tell you the truth. I can’t believe that our haters are not reaching new heights. I mean bored much? All the threads are so tired. Its not as if I haven’t given em enough to work with.

We are one of the most hated bands in Australia who have signed to one of the biggest metal labels in the world. Played Wacken which got us onto a heap of other festivals all over Europe. Including Bloodstock in the UK.

C’mon you faggots? Gimme more. Because you give me the fuel that I need to keep going. I fucking love it.

I have been hated by my own blood for Christ’s sake! You are going to really have to throw your back into it to make me stop giggling and shake your little yellow hand.

So we don’t sound like anyone else and we don’t care.
Oh Boohoo!. Go and brasso your fuckin bullet belt ya little girl.
Stay in your little bubble while I put my money where my mouth is.

Back to now.
Back to Germany.

I am listening to Blooduster at Maximum volume [“And this ones for all you straightedge wankers….”] right now, which is not helping my headache much. There is a fierce lightning storm playing fucky with the sky over Hamburg tonite. Why so loud? Ash is watching soccer with some mates down the end of the hall and he is one of those people who when faced with someone who doesn’t speak English believes that all he has to do is speak louder and that will break the language barrier.

Oh brother.

Deluxe is in a rotten mood and has locked himself away.
Mikey is practicing.tap,tap,boom,boom…….
Ash is yelling at bewildered Germans
And I am here writing to you.

We went and played another great festival on Thursday. “Summer Breeze” And yes they played the song in its original form and then the Type O negative Version. More than a few times…it was kinda sweet. A late inclusion, I am thinking that the band we covered for are in rehab. I am always thinking along those lines. So yeah we drove 6 hours played, I handed out a zillion stickers, signed stuff and did photos. Cool.

Got to watch The Haunted and Kreator from the side of the stage, which was fucking amazing. Bands that I never would have got a chance to see in a million years. The Haunted brought back good memories. Last time I saw them was at The Metro in Sydney with Bloodduster doing the support. That’s when Nixon was still in “em and was in the finest shaved headed form that night.

Enno was a fuckin saint. He is one of the big guns at Armageddon. Drove us to Dinkelsbuhl [I shit you not] and back again. 6 hours each way. The autobahn is a headfuck too.
He was weirding me out before I went on though. Asking If I was gonna wear my beanie and sunnies and stuff. I think that they want me to look a bit more girly or something.
Teehhehehe fuckin hee.
Bit bloody late in the game for that!

I came out to Europe with one pair of cammo shorts and 2 wife beaters and I don’t think that much is gonna change on the wardrobe front till we get paid or I start shoplifting again.

I love that a small festival in this country is 20 thousand. Just threw on The Stooges. I think that we are ment to jam today. Its all the new shit. Can’t wait to bring that on. I really need it. We keep trying to leave “RFS” out of set lists and get busted cause it’s our single here and we are ment to play it. I knew that this would happen. Its 2 years old now and it was funny at the time…. I mean I still like it and all but I want to get Brutal with it again.

Just glad that people are digging us out here. Get the usual shit about people thinking that I am a dude and yawn…. who cares. Just as it has always been when people dig it they are in for life. We are getting a huge push through France, which is really cool. I had no idea who would be into it Zeal says that they have not seen so many of the shops this into anything in this vein since Ministry. Flattery will get you everywhere. Well it’s getting me to Paris in a couple of weeks.

Speaking of Ministry introduced Al to Ross backstage at Wacken and Ross was all like “Hey Al” and turned away. Didn’t recognize him! Ross is the coolest motherfucker on gods green earth! He was the one who really got me into them as well.
[“It was just some drunk dude mish!”]
Bless.

There is a 12 string Washburn here that has made me master a mess of Zeppelin songs. You would too. It sounds so good. As always all and sundry roll their eyes when I play and sing. Ash is a bold face liar. Says that he hates acoustic guitar and what not. Oh yeah? Then how did he end up producing Diana Anaid? Hmmmmm?

Mikey just came out of the rehearsal room. Tells me that they are starting up. We are doing “Diatribe” and “Se7en” tonite. I love listening to them. I just moved to the floor right outside the room and as they have all been practicing independent of each other it sounds great. Ross just told Ash to turn down. Just another day at the office.

I will be sitting a lot of this time out, as they all need to fall back in together and I reckon that there would be nothing worse that turning around and seeing a singer perched there waiting. They usually do this part of it without me anyway.

[“I can’t hear anything in here”-Ross]

There is a dude who looks like Mark Arm from Mudhoney sitting on the sofa next to me and his feet stink. He just offered me a cookie.

I have been writing some new stuff. I left all my other stuff at home so I would be forced to come good on the ideas that I have been messing with.

“Couch Potato!”
“Hey! I am working as well”
“Yeah right!”
“Fuck off Ash”

Hope that we don’t all kill each other. I really gotta join that fuckin gym. Been listening to A LOT of The Rollins band which always seems to signal the start of another heavy cycle of self-abuse involving Stairmasters and a zillion sit ups.

[“There is no WAY that I am as fat as YOU!” Sniffs the bass god.]

Oh yes there is smart arse. Have another fucking Bratwurst.

Later.
SF4L
Michele.