Touch me Im sick!

-Mudhoney.

Rain,rain,rain…bah.

This is the “I cant sleep so anything to avoid my great big mess of a life” entry.

Need to get more ink cause the nights are getting longer and the darkness is rising like a brackish tite that I dont want to go under.

As always at this point in my rather stoic development,I am taking cash donations.

Also taking the piss as it takes little or no effort.Revenge is sweet.Red Bull in the other hand is not.I had never ever tried it till I went to work at Club 77 and now I need 2 of the fuckers to get me upright in the morning.Bah.

Stayed up all night in an empty bed gripped by panic and laziness.Meg wants to shave my head for me and its looking like a better idea all the fuckin time.

The house is empty and so is my head.Scratch that.What a fuckin lie!

He can never tell anyone that she was his whore.That she did anything that he wanted her to.Crawled across the persian rug like a posion thing,to melt onto his cock like fuck flavored ice cream.His phone turned off along with his decency for stolen hours.
His tounge on the base of her spine.
His other life spinning in the wind.
He knows and that is enough.At this point she only remembers what song was on the radio as he rammed into her.

Away from the moment,watching them do it like they invented it.

So yeah,Im writing alot,weird shit as above.Wondering who is really on my side,hating far too many people,stressing about going and how I am gonna run my life out there.Berating myself for not being more intouch with the tribe but I hardly even get round to myself right now.

Its been a year since my exile on the beach and I would give anything to be there again.Swinging big winter cicrcles on the sand,”Silver Spring” coiling round my frontal lobes.All I got now is the traffic outside my door and a heap of gritty memories.

My mate Scotty wrote me.A year on from Bakersfield and tells me that hes got a new band.That he loves and misses me and thats all you need aint it? A few people on the planet who remember your name?. It works for me.
Makes me kinda bummed that we have to postpone the states again.I am gonna loose it if I dont see Toodski and the Goochmonster soon.

Scratch that.I lost it years ago.

It can all go wrong alot faster than you thing.It does not pay to be cocky around such matters.

I have so much shit that I want to get up here before I go.All the crap that I spewed out over the summer and never worked out how to send to Ross.Does anyone read this shit???
Answers on a post card to……

SF4L
Michele