You have sent me heaps and I havent put em up.
-Delux.
Thanks man.
-Me.
The whole band is rolling around me for the 1st time in days.Do I fit? Oh man…..not the way you want to be seeing your life …….I am writing y’all then going to train till I burst a blood vessel.I wish! That would be soooo nice right now.I am crap at taking it easy.Delux is about to drive Mike to jam in the doom-room [ not as cool as it sounds by a long shot.] so that means that me and Ash will be on the bus…I will be in and out as fast as…well,pick your fave fast thing and that is me.
I cant get a straight answer out of anyone.Makes me feel nuttier that squirrel shit at this point.
I really dont know where all of this is going right now.I am on some kind of spiral with out the joy of abundant drug abuse,worse luck.Do I sound weak? Well,I guess that I do.I like to think of it as honest.
The line that goes through my head?
Talkin’ loud aint sayin’ nothin…
I shaved Johnny a killer Mohalk the other night.Delux was baked…I dont have anything to really say to anyone right now.I get that way.If you were here you would see and belive it.I should have just shaved my head…Kerri told me that I would loose 20% of my body heat,not a good move in this point.So I am gonna dye it green instead.
When Dave talks I get about one word out of three so I just walk away.
I lie awake till all hours,the cats using me as a jungle gym, watching crappy cable TV.My head pounding and the light fucking its way across the walls.When I do pass out I end up screaming awake two hours later.
Dylans kittens are named after dope plants…somewhere right now I can see the Brittstar smiling.
I cant work out if I am sick of myself [ That one is in the lead tonight] Or sick of my situation.
Its summer somewher…not fuckin’ here.
I have got a really cool bunch of people putting up with me.We are getting an apartment this week! Yey! a bathroom!!! I asked for a walk in wardrobe to which Delux rather sniffingly replied “Sure! We will get you a maid too!”…Totally got me wrong as always…..I want to live in it….at least then I get a door.
I cant say anything right by Ross so I just sit out of all conversations now.Mikey has got a week lockdown to drum so I guess that I wont see him till recording starts.Ash and I clashed so badly a few days ago that I have not been back in the van in about 4 days.
Got a message from my sister telling me that she is going back to London.Crap.I have been trying to call her but no joy there.I wanted to go to Mexico with her.Hopefully she will be back in LA in time to save my rotten ass at xmas.Gotta call Gene.
There is a 6 week lay off that I did not know about.There is no point on Me heading back downunder.Cant do it.We are ment to be here to tour again in feb and those tix get mighty blingy for want of a better word.Delux is heading for London Mike to his woman,Ash I couldnt care less…..Me?
It will be one shitstorming adventure.
My Mate Ryan drunkenly muttered a job involving power tools on saturday nite with Tool blaring in the background.Ross did his cats ass face as I whopped like a cowboy.
Thank you for all of your letters and support.I dig that y’all still write me all the time.You are gonna get the best slab out of this.The trick being is for me not to die in the process…that would make tooo many cunts happy.
SF4L
Michele
