16/03/04

-Run your mouth when Im not around ,Its easy to achive
Phil Anselmo “Walk.”

-Gimme Danger
Iggy Pop.

Throw it.
Sling it.
Do what you gotta do to validate yourself in the parking lot of life that you so badly want a spot in….Do what you gotta do cause when the dust clears….

I cant seem to fully articulate the seething shitstorm that is brewing in me tonite. How the small shit falls away. The crap that you have to climb over…..

The ones that haunt you are the ones that fuck you over without looking you in the eye.

No code.Outlaw.

Fuck this. I had it all worked out but now…?…. I am gonna prowl round like a rabid dog all morning. The best that I can hope for is that I exaust myself before I do myself any damage. I was in a taxi tonite.With someone that I belive to be the last man standing in my life so to speak. A final friend. Lucky……….

I am french kissing this pain. I am planing on getting into its godamn pants by the end of this. Do you ever want to stand up in the middle of your chosen battle field and scream
“Is that THE BEST YOU GOT???#@!#@!#@!#”…You ever felt that way?

I am talking through my ass here….So I will give you someone elses words cause mine all seem to be broken.

I am writing this from lost memory so if I fuck it up….sorry to the ghost of W.E.Henley.

Out of the night that covers Me
Black as the pit from pole to pole
I thank whatever gods may be
for My unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody but unbowed

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
looms but the horror of the shade
and yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate
how charged with punishment the scroll
I Am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul.

SF4L
Michele.